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'm listening to the songs of the Loki ... I got a few days ago, and I really like ... I feel safe while they make me feel strangely q fragile ... I guess things about myself, past scenes, vivid, future, possible ... I invented ... I find myself, like an idiot, thinking about a lot of strange things ... I like to wear the uniform of DMPA to be like ... O Katsumi into a book called "Four Gods of Heaven and Earth" ... Pq no? Priestess of Suzaku ... ... I'll be back to rave ... But dreaming is easy, and also ... q travel is cheaper ... Or so says the song ... And the best part is true ...
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My life has taken a vuElco huge considerably in recent months ... I do not know very well how to catch me ... Everything collapsed, yes, but seems to be built in the same way q was lost ... Everything is really crazy ... But if it is q before ... It's like being in the City Ancient Emperors ... However, I notice I q forces leave, if not q born again in me, in a proportion, and q wrote not long ago wanted to go back to being me ... And I q This is the start to see light ... Able to love, to feel joy ... excessive ... Again, I have wanted to go into the world, to confront him ... In looking at who lost to myself ... I do not cry over one who does not love me, or for whom I loved ... I do not q If the person on my side now, who wants to be with me ... Fear? Lot,Tado me ... We shared hours of solitary company, just him and me ... conversations, understanding, looks ... Kisses, hugs excessive passion and tenderness ... always present ... It was very q ... I felt like I build my indifference and neglect Carles Gabriel and Daniel in the arms of a Constellation ... Call Tamahome ... and my dreams turn to shine in the sky, caught by the always disturbing desire to love ... to be loved ... To feel q are important to someone and that someone is your side ... Terror, to lose it again, to suffer, to be hurt ... But this, I can not give it priority, because I'm too caught up to q that is my way out ... And my false security ... Too late to
want to putchoice but to run away, to try not to get close ... Because I love him ... And I noticed in my chest like a hot knife, always stuck present, burning ... And yet ... It hurts ... Or your pain is so sweet ... when fresh, and terribly sweet when you're away ... I'm sorry no one could feel ... q A q extreme intensity makes me touch the sky, or down to hell ... But I'm not afraid of Hell, I do not ... And if I lose to hell for it, so I will ... And as many times as needed ... I will give my life, because without it, not worth anything ... It seemed to start to like him when I met him a couple of months ... But from there to here, I can reaffirm ... To see him twice more, being with him alone, sharing a bed with him ... And again feel special, pq it makes me feel so ... something, q had long lost, arriving at a house inhabited by two people, but devoid of true passionate feelings ...
Tomorrow, Puchi coming home at 10 ... have breakfast together (I invite ^ ^ q and I owe two cineeees !!!!). At last, we signed together a course ... I want to make Pneumáticos Automatism, I hope to convince ... ^ ^ I will go very well do a course before the module ... Why not study a long q, and at least activated some neurons, besides q q is something I've always been very interested, and go with Puchi always a pleasure ... After the workshop, q just in summer, I go to Bilbo for a week ... I have so keensee the kids ... and to hug and kiss Tamahome ... That I q q more ... For we are going to cheat? I can handle anything, because he is in my memory in my heart ... And I totally salvageable qa distance ... will study a lot ... And think about it ... That's my goal ... And wait q soon pass the time, to be back with it ... And then, do everything possible to stop Kronos q, and so do the Sun, Stars and Moon ... Helios Selene ... ... ... Because I know that I now feel blessed by a higher power ... The Goddess Fortuna me smiles again ... Although I q never left me ... ... And the changes are part of the cycle of life, my life ... And now, I'm glad it has happened ... Next c
